1. Feel no changes in my life - apa org cakap still at same level.
2. Negative comments why I don't drive my car
3. feel a bit left out/left behind from my colleagues just because I was outsourced to other company which I suppose to learn more and has more projects... I feel they has learn so many things that I suppose to learn and do... and they got more privilege than me... more allowance and training...
4. I'm still not own anything yet..except from my car ... even I can't buy my own notebook...
5. no improvement at all... in term of academic -[ Hope to further studies, but a lot of challenges to overcome for that]
I've my own reason why I don't drive my car here accept from I'm not confident... but it was not easy to explain to everyone... it even harder to tell myself not to say so..
Thinking of my age now, this is not what I dreamed 10 years ago... it is not!!
Talking about age, is it to late for me to change now? is it to late for me to start all over again..to get what I want?
Some people will advise:
" x semestinya apa yang kita mahukan adalah yang terbaik untuk kita"
but why I not feel ease with my current situations? If this the best for me I should feel happy... right?
PS: sorry to being so emo for this entry... :-(